Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Life's been so extremely boring lately. I don't even have the will to update my blog anymore. Carnival was 2 weeks ago and I wasn't exactly motivated enough to write more stuff here about that. You can get it all from May Vin's blog. The only reason I suddenly got the spirit to post this is because today is our 100th day together! I wish I could've spent it with her but we both know that the important thing now is to focus on PMR. We both have to proove ourselves to our parents. Especially me... For some reason, they think I'm some kinda loser and it's like they've lost faith in me. Maybe their right... Maybe I am a loser. But then again... Losers don't get awesome girlfriends! HAHA...
Anyway, more about the parents thing. My mom thinks that I have a lot of anger and hatred inside of me and she keeps thinking that I'm a dude with anger-management issues. Right... So what if I do go over the top sometimes with my temper? Everyone gets carried away sometime. I don't really care what they think but it's not that I'm gonna ignore it. I've gotta change myself for the better. I know I'm not that kind of person and I'm sure most of you know that too. Am I emo? I'm pretty sure the answer will be NO. I've also heard that the teachers think I'm like this. And then it strtuck me... What if I really am some kind of asshole? What if I have issues? Everything is so screwed up right now with the exams coming and all these problems and leaving. What's there for me to do? Hey, I guess this is what the Average Joe calls life. You win some, you lose some. To the contrare! In my case, I haven't been winning much at all. I've been exactly the same but the world's been falling apart. Really fair, isn't it? On a more retrospective note, maybe I'm just being too emo and what not... I don't know what to think anymore. I can't even tell my parents that I dislike a certain Jonathan Aaron Hendricks (thinks he's really good at guitar but isn't that good in reality/living in a world of his own/NERD) without being told how to feel. I'm not allowed to have an opinon? What happened to freedom of speech? My mom's probably going to read all of this but what does it matter?. Like I mentioned just a sentence or two prior to this, what happened to the freedom of speech?
Well, y'all are most probably bored of my rant now so I bid you all goodbye. If you want to hear more ranting, please do not hesitate to contact by any possible means. Thank you!Just checking up here...
martin |9:15 PM | comments
Life's been so extremely boring lately. I don't even have the will to update my blog anymore. Carnival was 2 weeks ago and I wasn't exactly motivated enough to write more stuff here about that. You can get it all from May Vin's blog. The only reason I suddenly got the spirit to post this is because today is our 100th day together! I wish I could've spent it with her but we both know that the important thing now is to focus on PMR. We both have to proove ourselves to our parents. Especially me... For some reason, they think I'm some kinda loser and it's like they've lost faith in me. Maybe their right... Maybe I am a loser. But then again... Losers don't get awesome girlfriends! HAHA...
Anyway, more about the parents thing. My mom thinks that I have a lot of anger and hatred inside of me and she keeps thinking that I'm a dude with anger-management issues. Right... So what if I do go over the top sometimes with my temper? Everyone gets carried away sometime. I don't really care what they think but it's not that I'm gonna ignore it. I've gotta change myself for the better. I know I'm not that kind of person and I'm sure most of you know that too. Am I emo? I'm pretty sure the answer will be NO. I've also heard that the teachers think I'm like this. And then it strtuck me... What if I really am some kind of asshole? What if I have issues? Everything is so screwed up right now with the exams coming and all these problems and leaving. What's there for me to do? Hey, I guess this is what the Average Joe calls life. You win some, you lose some. To the contrare! In my case, I haven't been winning much at all. I've been exactly the same but the world's been falling apart. Really fair, isn't it? On a more retrospective note, maybe I'm just being too emo and what not... I don't know what to think anymore. I can't even tell my parents that I dislike a certain Jonathan Aaron Hendricks (thinks he's really good at guitar but isn't that good in reality/living in a world of his own/NERD) without being told how to feel. I'm not allowed to have an opinon? What happened to freedom of speech? My mom's probably going to read all of this but what does it matter?. Like I mentioned just a sentence or two prior to this, what happened to the freedom of speech?
Well, y'all are most probably bored of my rant now so I bid you all goodbye. If you want to hear more ranting, please do not hesitate to contact by any possible means. Thank you!Just checking up here...
martin |